I am so pissed off by my dad earlier on.
Cycling and showering makes me cool down a little.
Although I don't wish to be home at times, but I guess it can't be helped.
After all, this is my home.

Who knows when will be the day I will blow up again.
It have been some time since I was this angry again.
Foul words just came out of my mouth, I couldn't control it, the anger was too hard to suppress.
But at least, I didnt cry and so I guess it is still better than the previous incident.
I don't even have the mood to celebrate my birthday.
I don't wish to eat apple strudel or cut the cake.
If I am feeling unhappy, why celebrate?
There is no need for pretendence.
Or is it that I am not even entitled to this "right" even at home?
Oh wells, the world still need to move on no matter what.

I have my rights too, being at this home alone makes me feel like a caged bird.
I don't have any authority to do decide things for myself.
No matter how much I love my parents, this is still too much for me to bear.
My heart is not gracious enough to take in their expectations and unreasonable temper at times.

Sooner or later, everything will just snap.
It's just a matter of time & most importantly, it's not a whole anymore.

I am going to hit twenty-two very soon, like in another 2 more days?!
Looking back, time really flies.
Leaving my LJ isolated for like almost half a year, there should be tons of things waiting for me to update.
But I can't think of any to type cause I don't know where to start,except my job and my parents.

Ever since I got a job, I seen the greatest change in my parents, their expectations and everything.
If I say I am not even the slightest disappointed, I would be lying.
I know I shouldn't complain, after all, they are my parents.
But it is inevitable that humans don't complain, isn't it?
If it is, the world could probably be a better place and no one would need to see the phychologist.

I respect my dad in terms of filial piety, but that doesnt mean I agree to his opinions.
Even though I didn't bother to speak up, it doesn't mean I don't care.
So don't push me to the limit.

Fullstop

31th Jan 2012 - 10:11PM